honestly at one point back in time i really thought i wanted to be with you forever. when i first met you i thought you were really different but i can see you had the wool over my eyes the whole time. what seemed like love was in all actuality just lust. the sex was good, of course bc i was very inexperienced and you were extremely experienced. so of course i was blinded by lust. now i have gotten to know you so much better. it just seems like you have the inability to love. you don’t know how to love somebody and it sucks bc i have so much love to give but you can’t let me in. you push me away physically and emotionally. doesn’t even seem like you like me anymore and i know you’ve never loved me. but i’ve come to the point where i can see things more clearly and i’m starting to realize that i do not love you, nor am i in love with you. and i’m starting to wonder if i ever was. the honest to god truth is that this relationship is ruining me. i hurs me so bad to fight with you so much, i hate everything you do. you’ve just made me resent you. sometimes i felt like you weren’t even my bf, you acted like my dad. you’re just like most of the people in my life. you’ve given up on me, i feel it. and i know the one reason why we’re together is bc i can’ go anywhere. but i’m getting stronger, i gotta do this for myself and all you do is bring me down. so it looks like i’m starting over….. once again. i’m so tired of this wandering shit it’s like when am i gonna find my place?? i’m starting to pray again, only god can help me out of this. bc idk wha he plan is. all i know is that i’m done with you, you don’t deserve me. goodbye sean.
It’s over
